Everyday Living with God
When I think about what loving acts God has brought to my life so many things come up. Love, peace, abundance, growth, joy, harmony, safety and security. The list goes on and on. Thinking about all these wonderful gifts from God, made me ask myself, how many promises does God make to us? Over 5,000! In the Bible, God makes over 5,000 promises to us.
Back in December 2015, the moment I fell to my knees and asked God for help, I was absolutely overcome with darkness. Since that time, I’ve learned that there are two ways to live. We can lead with love or lead with fear. We’ve dressed the word fear up into fancy words like judgement, jealousy, anger, resentment and my least favorite of them all, hate. During this bleak time, I was seriously all of these and more. I couldn’t pin point one because during the day, my moments went from anger to resentment or jealousy with a little joy thrown in now and again. In truth, my darkness was really lots of fear. All I could do was again ask for help. Love would always win and I was continually led to answers. This time I was led to Psalm 23:4.
Psalm 23:4 Yes, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me
Saying this Psalm, over to myself again and again slowly brought me out of my slumber. It felt like a calmness was washing over me. I can describe it as a soothing feeling. I wasn’t feeling sure and I wasn’t feeling confident, but I was feeling calmer. After a few more days, it felt good to recite the scripture as an affirmation. This is how I slow began my journey of Everyday living with God. I would recite scripture affirmations over and over out loud and quietly to myself “I fear nothing, God is with me.” Again, calmness would fall over me, this time in a deeper and more meaningful way. By no means was I cured from my darkness, but I could breathe again. Just having the slightest inkling of feeling better made me want more. More love that is. I was receiving the first glimpse of what it felt like to come from love versus living in fear.
Matthew 6:31-33 Therefore do not worry and be anxious, saying, What are we going to have to eat? Or, What are we going to have to drink? Or, What are we going to have to wear? For the Gentiles wish for and crave and diligently seek all these things, and your heavenly Father knows well that you need them all. But seek first all His kingdom and His righteousness and then all these things taken together will be given you besides.
Over and over in my head I would say “Seek first God and his word and I trust all of my needs will be met.” Trust! That was a big and scary word! Trust all of my needs will be met. By who, God? Hmmmmm…this invisible magnificent force? That’s where faith came in. Faith is defined as complete trust or confidence in someone or something. See I knew a few things up until this point. I trusted and I was confident that I couldn’t live in my darkness any longer. I trusted and I was confident I didn’t know how to get myself out of feeling so much fear and anxiety. And I trusted and I was confident that when I asked God for help, help came and for the first time in a long time, I felt better. This was a no brainer for me. My new affirmation came to be: Seek first God and his word and I trust all of my needs will be met.”
Until next time! Thank you so much for taking the time out to read Everyday Living with God.